New Year’s Resolutions

Normally I don’t make New Year’s resolutions with the thought that I’m probably going to break them all within the first few weeks anyway and I am just setting myself up to fail. But this year I’m going to strive for a better 2015.

So here in no particular order are my New Year’s Resolutions:

1. Exercise/Lose Weight

This resolution will be particularly challenging. I am still on the medication that has made me gain the weight and I have been too depressed to go to the gym, even though I have free membership. It’s hard to get off the couch sometimes, much less put on work-out clothes and get there. But I realize that if I can just make it there a few times I can get into a habit and will feel less depressed and in better health. I’ve been pain free for many months now, my tiredness is due to being out of shape, not to any disease.

2. Better Mental Health

Maybe it’s just not possible for me to live a life that is either manic or depressed but I want to try. I’m light years ahead of where I was back in January of 2012 when I attempted suicide but I’ve been struggling with depression for many months. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist next week and I’m going to ask to try a different anti-depressant.

3. Declare Bankruptcy or Debt Consolidation

This has been something that Grant and I have needed to do since we lived in New Jersey but life has been so chaotic we’ve never been able to get our acts together. Things have calmed down and it’s time to do the right thing. I used to have a great credit rating but years of catastrophic illness between a husband and a wife can wreck that fast.

4. Get a Divorce/Dissolution

Yes, I am still married to Grant although we haven’t been together since December of 2012. As you know, our separation has been amicable so we haven’t felt a real rush to make it official, and Jacques has been very easy going about it. It’s lead to some awkward situations though. People in Ohio don’t take kindly to a woman having a husband and a boyfriend.

What are your New Year’s Resolutions?

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About mamasick

Emily Cullen is a pen-name. I suffer from chronic illnesses and diseases which include Bipolar Disorder, Asthma, Diabetes and Fibromyalgia. I had battled Lupus and Rheumatoid Arthritis but there is no longer evidence of me having these diseases and my Rheumatologist has declared them to be "burnt out" of my system. I am separated from my husband, “Grant”. Our son, “Tyler” was born in September of 2006 and suffers from tics and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and is delayed in fine and gross motor skills. In my blog I seek to let sick moms know that they are not the only ones going through this, and to educate people about what can happens when one becomes catastrophically ill. I also strive to break down stereotypes of what a “Welfare Mom” is like. Anything that I have gone through due to being sick, is written on the pages of Mama Sick.

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